And her friend said, " just kids in love"

It's was 4th time she rejects my proposal

I was like killing self again and again by proposing her, as if I could not believe I was rejected, so confirming it again and again,

That time it went terrible, and as I said terrible, really "terrible",

I messaged her and asked her to meet at a tea stall 

(yea she's kind of girl!!, who like tea at road side stall over coffee at CCD)

No reply for half an hour, ok!
I was refreshing same chat page again and again,
Wondering why Yahoo Messenger can't give auto refresh option.
No reply more an hour.

I was getting angry, wish I could go at her place

 but I already got an ultimatum from her dad,👿
I even tried to call at her home but every time her maa or bakku (her brother) picked up

I didn't know what to do, still refreshing same chat page.
Suddenly my mind start working and I called her best friend , the only friend
(Yea! She really don't have any friend)

Called her, she had weird caller tune
'shila ! Shila ki Jawani! I am too sexy for you! Main tere hath Na Anni '
I thought "too sexy?, Yea may be
Hath Na aani ! Who wants you?"
'hello!' she said like I called her at her last breath moment, so dead voice she have!
'hi'
'why r u calling me'
'amm! I want Ur help'
'dude! Again! What did you do now?'
' I didn't do anything , she's just not replying my messages or calls'
'ya I get that , but why , what did you do'
' nothing, re! She just got angry on me...'
'ya! She must be , she was so upset today , in college, she even bunked lab and went, I asked her many times but she didn't spilt it out' she cut me and said all at half breath.
' actually, what happe...ned'
' I knew you must did something, do you know I never see an idiot like you in my life , ' she again cut me and start pretending I hurt her friend, yea, I actually did.
'but, wasn't my fault!'
'sure?'
' ok . It was , I actually proposed her again '
' are you nuts, what kind of chipku are you, she already cleared everything with you na!, still u proposed her again?'
‘ listen, may be you don’t understand things here, it’s not like I don’t know how world works!
But I can’t help myself from doing that?
Why you guys don’t understand I really LOVE her'
' idiot! , I know you love her'
‘ but , she?’
‘ obvio, she does know ‘
‘ then, why she kept rejecting (read ignore) me? ‘
‘ dude you are deep shit, you are not understanding her still, and may be you will not ever,
She’s right! You are just a kid in love ‘
Just kid in love, I thought what she meant by that,
And obvio, she do know! WHAAAT?
‘ what you mean by she does know? ‘ I asked after I realised what she just told.
‘ Da, she knows you really love her, what you think what is the reason she keeps in touch with you,
Even she rejected you so called proposals, I don’t know how many times'
I just kept listening her while I couldn’t understand what was she talking about.
She added after a push ‘ what you think, she could block you over all social media and every IM app,
But did she do that? Why?
'she likes me'
‘ no, Dumbo , she loves you ‘
‘ she do ! ‘ I exclaimed
‘ yup, Da ‘
‘ then why..’ I couldn’t complete sentences as she cut me
‘ because you both are not ready for ‘that’ relationship ‘
She put weight on word that and added ‘ specially you ‘

Continue.....

Tim lack lack de tim lack lack

Exactly before 3years 10months 25days before
I entered in this college as a 12th pass boy,
When I completed my SSC , all said ,more two year , pass HSC , then your life would be set.
Then I even passed HSC with enough good marks I can obtain ,
Again all said more four years of engineering then your life would be set, you will have job , will get married, will have happy all after life no books then,
So with hope, almost since last four years I was studying here for that all set happy ever after life.

But today , as I am standing here holding my graduation degree, last day of my college life, study life,
First day of my so called social life , my career life
I am thinking, will it be all set happy ever after life from tomorrow,?
Will it be same as all said in past six years?
May be it will may be it will be not! I don't know .

Now I understand what 'Mr. maths teacher' thought us in probability chapter about 'Schrödinger's cat', what she was feeling that time in sealed box,
She might don't know if she will be alived or dead, but it's definite that she can't be alive and dead at same time,
I also feeling like her, what it would be like when this college box opened,
May be we will be all set happy ever after as all said or may be we will be nothing as I fear.

Remember what Dj said in rang de Basanti
'college ke gate ke is taraf hum life Ko nachate hai
Tim lack lack de Tim lack lack,
Gate ke us taraf life hame nachati hai
Tim lack lack de time lack lack
Gulabo, Na Jane kitne Dj pis Gaye is life ki chakki me'
Tim lack lack de Tim lack lack

We r not any Dj this ain't any movie

But still life out side will be Tim lack lack de Tim lack lack

All this years I came to know if there is any life it's in campus
If it has be all set happy ever after it must be here
Here in our classes
In laboratory
In library corner kisses

If it's here it must be with
Bunk hours samosa party
With Pending account at canteen
With having crush on friends' girlfriend
With flirting the most handsome boy even after being a geek nerdy girl

If it's here it must be
In Dean's call to his office
In hod's punishment to stay extra days in reading
In professor's assignment

If it's here it must be
with All those idiot friends
With one side crush,walking with u smiling
With four buddys riding on single bike
With one and only studious friend who help u pass all exam

If it's here it's
In having no pocket money on last days of month
In eating all unhuman hostel food
In fighting on topic that who will go to buy tea at 3 am

If it's here it's
In asking frind to give his shirt to wear coz it's Saturday
In asking friend to wake u up early coz u didn't prepare for exam yet
In asking to GC drawing sheets coz u just can't understand EG
In making Goa trip plan every vacation and cancelling it coz one of Ur friends parents didn't allow

If it's here it's
In adjusting 3 person in two bed
In having one tiffin for 4 person
In identifying which lady professor is more sexy
In wondering what if u can't clear engineering and have to run a tea stall

If it's here it's
In using proxy net in zero balance sim
In cracking library WiFi password to download movies
In playing CS for long weekends
In mass bunkin
In no so good reasons fun strike

If it's here it
In holding graduation degree in Hand still don't want to leave college
In looking all of u idiots, next day v ll be busy in our lives
In heartily respecting all those facilities who make me capable to earn this degree any how
In closing this speech with teary eyes